The Beginning

Today is the day I start to lose weight. Just as a back story, I have been overweight starting at about 16 years old. I am a diabetic who was super skinny and underdeveloped when I was 12. My endocrinologist (diabetes doctor) was concerned so he increased my calorie intake contiunually until I began to put on weight. Once I started putting on weight, I didn't stop at a good healthy weight. I was so used to eating a lot that I didn't really want to stop, nor did I know how. Looking back I probably was unhealthy was why I couldn't gain weight. I ate mostly carbs and proteins with little vegetables and fruits. I didn't like many fruits and vegetables, and I still don't. I was not athletic and did not like outdoor activities much, and I still don't. But those things are about to change. But I need your help, dear reader, to encourage me and kick my booty when I don't do well.

I am going to be honest with you. I will tell you what I eat, how I feel, when I exercise, what size I wear and even what I weigh. I will post pictures as I progress, but don't worry there won't be any bikini shots. Just me wearing clothes.

So here I go.

I weigh 192 lbs. I am 5'6" tall and 29 years old. I wear a size XXL and 16 in most things. To some of you, this may seem huge, others may wish they were this size, and others are in the same boat rowing along with me. No matter what size you personally are, I feel you can help me in some way.

As I stated, I am not a huge fruit and veggie fan. There are some I like, but not a lot. I am a grazer. A handful of cashews here, a slice of cheese there. I already drink diet drinks only and don't eat mayo, so that cuts out two easy things you can cut out! I hate drinking water. But I am committed to doing it this time. I know, why start on Tuesday? Everyone starts on Monday. Because, I have lived over 1500 Mondays and none of them have brought change. I have probably started diets on about 20 of those Mondays, and here I am, larger than ever. I am not following any certain plan, just eating better, eating less, and exercising. Right now, I eat probably an average diet of home-cooked and processed foods with an occational dining out. I don't eat large bags of chips and consume a whole package of Oreos, but I do not eat as well as I should. I currently don't exercise. I am a stay-home mom of three small children.

So here it goes, starting now, you can hold me accountable. Let me know when I have done well and when I haven't. Spur me on. I need to lose this weight for my diabetes. For my heart. For my family. Not to be society's ideal, but the ideal God has for me.

Thanks for your support.